F E L I N E R S

Well, emo post lah, what else?!!

The main reason why Feline Fuckers exist is because it is our keep-in touch portal. However, come times like this I cannot help but post up some personal and somewhat private thoughts. I guess I really should have a personal blog but being the not-so-IT and worldwideweb person that I am, I doubt I will be able to maintain two blogs. No way.

So, Bee left this evening. I am again, alone. Alone is my epiphany moments; some uplifting and inspirational, others dark, stormy, daunting. I treasure both. The longer I stay away from where I came from, the more I learn. The more I grow. Grow out of the place I used to call home. Grow out of the people I used to identify with so much. My reality is not the same as before and as I continue down this path that I have chosen for myself, I feel myself disconnecting slowly from the world I used to know. It is kind of like what a tarot card reader told me once in KL before I left, that the card shows that I am going into the dungeon, or a place unknown to others and they have no ways of understanding the whys and whats. I often feel this way when talking to some friends back home...now I realise that there is no point in trying to keep in touch simply for the sake of keeping in touch. There is too much to do and too little time.

I guess what I really want to say is this, that I am extremely grateful that Bee came... and that I was able to share with her my hopes and aspirations. I just feel as though she totally gets it after being here and the rest of the world has no idea...on why I came here, what is it that I'm doing here and why I now choose to leave when I have the option of staying and working here.

I guess that is enough emo for one day huh! So Bee, if all turns to dust tomoro...at least you'd understand all these crap that I am rambling about! On top of that, you also know that there is a world out here where it isn't about being thin-thin-tall-tall-fair-fair. Hehehhh. And ohhhhh, I am sure our fellow feliners will enjoy your gossip-y stories during the times we shared here.

p/s:luv u felines long time!

xoxo,
kit