It has been a while since I posted anything lengthy or something of more substance from my brain/heart. I have the sudden urge to do so.
Let's begin, or shall I say I'll attempt to do so.
I think most of you know that I've finally started full time since about a month plus ago and since then I think I've had much less time to myself. (obviously of course) It was really daunting on the first day I tell you. To think that after four years of working as and when I wanted to was all coming to an end. Ack!! I think my biggest fear of getting back into full-time employment was parting with the ability to pack and leave to see some parts of the world anytime I want to. Afraid of losing my new and improved self to the world filled with lies and shoe polishing.
Afraid of losing my soul.
Just a few days ago, I was reminiscing the sweet, sweet feeling of the high of life. Damn, I really miss that feeling. The feeling of no fear at all, the feeling of just being alive. I feared not being to feel that again. I guess I should know better than to fear, after all it is a choice. We are all given the liberty to have choice. To be able to choose what we want. I just need to remind myself that.
I was worried about conforming, but I did and some of you know why. I think the universe heard my fear and my heart's desire, as I am now given a new choice. A vision that my heart had set eyes on some time ago and now that vision is within reach. So yay to that!
Ask and thou shall be given, even the deepest of your heart's desire.
I am now a believer in nothing is impossible.
Wait.
I mean I'm a stronger believer.
Really, all you got to do is ask!!
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