Now that you mention, wow time does fly right? We've known each other almost 10 years now. Ack. We are aging by the day, gracefully. :)
I like how you have shared about the several feelings that I have made you feel. I find it very personal and it is good to know that I have in one way or another made an impact in your life. I am very grateful that we crossed-paths in the blood-sucking college. Heh. I am even more grateful that somehow, you ended up living just a stone's throw away from me.
What makes our friendship even more awesome, is how easily we can connect and understand each other. I think our friendship really batus lah. Sometimes when we're chatting online, we can get what each other is thinking or feeling...I think that is true connection yo.
I remember you once said "why do people leave"....well, I guess the easiest way to answer that is people move on and embrace new opportunities given. I GUESS. heh
Anyway, do know that even though we'd be physically far apart, I have faith that because we are both December babies, born 5 days apart....we will always share the true connection. Don't think you need to worry about our long distance relationship. We will be fine. :)
Last but not least, yes...feelings are what make life worth living.
knee boot yeow could ler.
dear poos,
do u realize that we have known each other for 10 years now? it all began with just a little bit of nonsense (in an amusing way).. and each year, more & more nonsense is being accumulated.. our amusement isn't like the one u have with Zero, but i do hope u enjoy the nonsense i have been providing.. *juggles with shit*
i read somewhere that "no aspect of our mental life is more important to the quality & meaning of our existence than emotions. they are what make life worth living." with this, i'd like to let u know that u have made me go through many different emotions..
u have given me joy, by being my 'highlight' of the day.. just by being your zestful self *whistles*
acceptance, by acknowledging our differences (& similarities) and welcoming me into your life..
fear, by insisting that i should listen to those ambient music u have at home..
surprise, by giving me Big News occasionally.. and also, seeing how everyone grows.. yours is by far the most surprising.. from being someone who ultimately lives life on the edge to someone who now has such overwhelming emotional prudence.. (prudence, yo)
disgust, when u tell me u're getting another tattoo!! (sorry, no offense)
anger, that time when i was driving you and idiot in my car on my birthday last year..
anticipation, when we make plans in the future.. (we are doing the solo backpacking "together", right?)
optimism, when things go downhill in my life
awe, when u share with me your positive outlook in life, among all other artsy things
disappointment, when u sometimes can't show up for some sessions
jealousy, within the year when u were abroad for studies, because it seems like my friendship was being replaced by new friends so ever easily.. (that's when i sent u my passport picture! haha)
inspiration, to become a better person in so many ways..
love, by sharing with me all of the above mentioned..
and most recently (today), u have made me gone through a sadness pang, by confirming the date that u're leaving..
miss hampau emerged and realized that she has a new situation to deal with.. a situation that was planned ahead but didn't seem real.. until today..
oh well.. apparently, THESE, are what make life worth living.
signing off in an unhappy way,
garf